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Episode Two: How a Healer Found Her Gifts and Why They Matter Now

Who Is Ambujam?

“We are not our issues,” Ambujam, a healer living in Bozeman, Montana, insists. Instead the True Self, our most underutilized asset, puts all right again … and again … and again. If we allow it.

This has been Ambujam’s work for nearly 30 years – to help us get back to that vital, tender core, and so find our way back to wholeness.

Told with her characteristic humility and humor, and her ability to shoot straight from the hip, Ambujam’s story is remarkable. Her healing gifts landed on her while walking through San Francisco one afternoon – literally – as she rounded a corner near the Embarcadero.

Since that fateful day decades earlier … she has been making her living healing people individually and in groups, in both personal and business settings.

How We Met … and How She Does It

Today Ambujam helps anyone who is suffering reawaken their inner knowing, and come back to themselves in a real and lasting way. Her work is not explainable, but it is truly effective.

My own connection to Ambujam is that she came to stay with me in my tiny apartment in San Francisco, after we were connected with a friend. My daughter Teal was still alive at the time, and she was immediately taken with Ambujam’s profound healing gifts. So much so that they spent an entire Thanksgiving weekend doing a ‘heal-a-thon’ on each other along with Ambujam’s partner Michael. This effectively started Teal on her own path as a healer.

Personally, I’ve experienced her work as well … and again and again I’ve been blown away by the depth, the insight and the lasting effect of her mysterious process.

It was Ambujam who told Teal, just 9 months before her death, that her path with me would lead us to become leaders of love and light together. And, well, here we are.

Listen as Ambujam shares what she knows about being human, and finding your way past the suffering back to happiness.

In this episode, you will hear about:

  • The gripping story of how Ambujam discovered her ability to guide people on their path
  • How we can, in fact, definitively get past our issues
  • The ‘big thing’ that plagues most of us in our society today … and how Ambujam has resolved this for herself
  • What we need to let go of in order to truly be content in life … and what we need to do instead
  • Our national awakening in the Trump Era … and our global awakening … and what it reflects spiritually and energetically about our world
  • The illusion that holds us back – until we discover it and release our need for it
  • Our common foibles … and how to get back to ‘Who are you really’Plus much, much more ..



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About Ambujam

Ambujam works with clients these days mostly in groups, though she does from time to time see private clients. You can join her groups virtually, and learn more about her work at her website.

Transcript of Interview with Ambujam

Suzanne: This is Before the Afterlife, all about healing, spiritual growth and how to be happy before you go. I’m your host, Suzanne Falter. We are coming to you from Oakland, California and points beyond.

“We are not our issues,” Ambujam, a healer living in Bozeman, Montana, insists. Instead the True Self, our most underutilized asset, puts all right again … and again … and again. If we allow it.

This has been Ambujam’s work for nearly 30 years – to help us get back to that vital, tender core, and so find our way back to wholeness.

Told with her characteristic humility and humor, and her ability to shoot straight from the hip, Ambujam’s story is remarkable. Her healing gifts landed on her while walking through San Francisco one afternoon – literally – as she rounded a corner near the Embarcadero.

Since that fateful day decades earlier … she has been making her living healing people individually and in groups, in both personal and business settings.

Today, Ambujam helps anyone who is the suffering reawaken their inner knowing and come back to themselves in a real and lasting way. Her work is not explainable but it truly is effective. My own connection to Ambujam is that she came to stay with me in my tiny apartment in San Francisco after we were connected through a friend. My daughter, Teal, was still alive at the time and she was immediately taken with Ambujam’s profound healing gifts, so much so, that they spent an entire Thanksgiving weekend doing a healathon on each other, along with Ambujam partner, Michael. This effectively started Teal on her our own path as a healer. Personally, I have experienced Ambujam’s work as well and again and again, I have been blown away by the depth, the insight and the lasting effect of her mysterious process. So listen here, as Ambujam shares what she knows about being human and finding your way past the suffering back to real happiness.

I wanted to begin by asking you a question very close to my heart which is, “What in your life put you on this path of healing?”

Ambujam: Gosh! What a good question! Well, ever since I was little, I had this desire deep in my little soul to be free. Although I wouldn’t abuse that word, now I have a vocabulary to be like, Oh that’s what I was doing. And so, I was super curious of what makes me who I am, what motivates me to think the things I think, why do I have these feelings about myself and others. It’s just something that was always, always, always there. And when I was two and a half years old, I had a brother who died who was 13 months old and I think that was a huge – that grief that I had, that just never went away that was so deep in my heart. I think that was my, you could say like my first motivator, that caused me to seek how do I feel better because I was looking to feel better. And a long story short after all kinds of classes and healing and therapy, I moved to San Francisco about 23 years ago and instantly, my gifts opened. I was walking down Market Street in San Francisco and turned to the corner at Market Embarcadero when all of a sudden, Boom! And it was really overwhelming, I felt like fifty thousand feet tall. I felt like the bridge and the rock and water and the ground. I was walking on was all, it was like part of my fingers and part of my toes it was all like a part of me and there was no separation between me and the things I was looking at. And then I walk into work because I was waitressing, and I was like good morning and this person who I worked with was like good morning and all of us in this part of him popped out in front of me and said I went on a date last night and she reminded me of my mother. And started to go on and on and on about how horrible the date was because the woman reminded him of his mother, and I’m like what’s happening to me.

Suzanne: Wow! That’s pretty extraordinary!

Ambujam: And it was really overwhelming! I felt like fifty thousand feet tall. I felt like the bridge and the rocks and the water and the ground I was walking on was all… It was like part of my fingers and part of my toes, it was all like a part of me and there was no separation between me and the things I was looking at. And then I walked into work because I was waitressing, and I was like, Good morning! and this person who I worked with was like, Good morning and all of a sudden, a part of him just popped out in front of me and said, “I went on a date last night and she reminded me of my mother.” And it started to go on and on and on about how horrible the date was because the woman reminded him of his mother, and I’m like, “What’s happening to me?”

Suzanne: But he wasn’t actually saying those words… It was like a holographic version of him perhaps?

Ambujam: Yes, exactly!

Suzanne: Wow! Amazing!

Ambujam: And then all day long, I am taking people’s orders but I hear their roars and their upsets and their divorces and it was crazy but it felt so normal, like I almost never felt so much more normal until that day. And then this is like a really long story short and then I came home and my roommate was home and I felt compelled to do a reading for him even though I didn’t really know what that word meant, and I told him what was happening to me all day and I said can I do this thing with you and I don’t really know how to make it happen because it was just happening to me and he’s like, Okay. So it was like 2 plus hour, 3-hour experience and during that experience, these Beings at the time who worked with me, came in and they told me to tell him that his father needed him. And I told him, his dad needed him and he got really, really, really upset with me for the first time during the whole reading and I thought I said something wrong and the Beings were like, Tell him again, tell him again! I was like, No! No! He’s upset! and they’re like, Tell him again! And they are really adamant and so I said,  I just feel really strong to keep telling you, Your dad needs you. And he said,  Well, my dad left my mom and I like 15 years ago and I haven’t seen him since, and then the reading turned into this whole big thing of ever since he was a kid he thought that it was his fault that his dad left, which created all these issues with women and all these issues with work and I was getting all this information of how he could heal the fact that he thought it was all his fault. And so that went on for some time, and I woke up next morning and I thought, Well, that was really weird. I felt like it was a fluke. Like how do I know all this stuff? And then I got to work and then I’m like, I want to do it again and I was reading people all day long and I got home and my roommate was home and he was bawling his eyes out, like crying in a way I have never seen anybody cry and my first feeling was, Uh-oh! This is from yesterday and I screwed him up and I was scared and he came over to me and just this crying and this look in his eyes and he said, Do you remember you told me my dad needed me? and I said, Yes… and he said, “I called my mom and we found his phone number and I called him. And I was like, You did? and he is like, Yes… and he told me he thought he was doing the right thing by not staying in contact with me and he’s been wanting to get in touch with me. So we are going to go to have a lunch tomorrow and start a relationship. And I was like, Whoa!  I was just beyond humbled and shocked all at the same time, and then the Beings came back, and it was like as my roommate was crying, it was like pausing the tape for a second, pausing the movie, and they said, You have the ability to see the real causes of people’s issues and how they can heal them and free, and I was like,  Oh! This is it! This is the feeling ever since I was little that I’ve been waiting for.  And I was just compelled to start my practice and that was 23 years ago and then it’s evolved since then.

Suzanne: That’s a great story! That’s a very beautiful story! So Ambujam, I got a question for you, love.  When you work with people at this level, are there any common themes over these 23 years that’s really jumped out? Any kind of persistent human foibles that you always see or that you seem to always notice?

Ambujam: Well, to broad stroke that one, before 2010, it was just about being human, evolving and having issues and healing issue and then a mass awakening started happening and it wasn’t just about, Okay, you have to heal your issue. It is, Who are you, really. And so the pattern is, everybody has the same issues, like – not good enough, fear of failure, like these core fear of loss abandonment, but their stories of how they got there as a soul is very specific. But when 2010 started happening and this awakening started happening in people and this like True Self started arising out of their heart, like doing sessions, it really changed how the work came through because it’s about who, what is that light, who are you really and how do you embody that and then how does that change, how you work with your issues. Because if we just believe we are our issues, it takes forever. A feeling will never end. But we are not, right? In this past and to saw your memory and other stuff that dictates our connection with people and our connections with ourselves, and the True Self is coming.

Who are you really and how do you embody that? And then, how does that change? How do you work with your issues? Because if we just believe that we are our issues, it takes forever. A feeling will never end. But we are not, right?

In this past and to saw your memory and other stuff that dictates our connection with people and our connections with ourselves, and the True Self is coming on line that’s none of those. So it’s this balance of you, how do you connect with who you really are and live that life or how do you heal your issues from there. So that’s kind of  broad stroke of what are the patterns. It’s like we almost live these two lives, one is where this awake human being that is coming online that has purposes to do and that has nothing to do with our thoughts and our minds and our emotions and our pain. And then where this person that has all the history of pain and how do you walk this line of balance of embodiment, like being at it all.

Suzanne: Okay, so that explains why you say on your website that your practice is one of helping people engage in self-embodiment which is a hard phrase for most of us to really understand. So what you are really suggesting is, we are not even in our bodies. We are kind of walking around in our heads all the time and what does that actually mean, like give me a concrete example of this, please?

Ambujam: That’s a really good question. So a concrete example would be… Alright I am going to give you an example from my own life because the only thing that’s in my face right now even though my mind is like,  No… No… Don’t say that. My heart says,  Say it… say it! So the example is… My husband and I sold our house because we were guided to do so last year, last June. And my in-laws my close parents said, Come stay with us… and it felt so true, like all this light and love and happiness and we said, Okay. I’m thinking it was only going to be a month or so. Well, that was 7 months ago… and my mind and my emotions are saying every day, Get out! Find a way out of here. Just go! Do more sessions. Just go! Get a job.  Just go to these things. But my heart says, It’s not time to go. You are exactly where you need to be.

Suzanne: Trusting… Yeah.

Ambujam: And so my mind and my thoughts and my emotions –  I have all kinds of ideas. Who I am? What I should be doing? and then there is the truth in my heart that there is just like abiding peace that never goes away no matter what’s going on and that’s the truth. That’s my guiding Light and it rarely matches my mind.

Suzanne: And wouldn’t you say Ambujam that’s true for all of us?

Ambujam: Yes, exactly so that’s herein lies the conflict. So we’ve been this human being thinking that we have control and having our minds run lives like we have a thought and we are like, Yeah I’m going to do that thought and we’d never questioned it. And then we all start waking up and..

…that mind is like the Fred Flintstone car and our hearts are like the super train. The car, the Fred Flintstone car, it’s like run its course. It’s not really getting us where we need to be any more and that is the hardest thing as a human being… to let go of control and be like, Okay heart what do I do?

That’s the hardest thing when I work with people, when you asked about a pattern is, letting go of the illusion that I can control my life and that’s something else now is doing things. But it’s not my idea and it’s not my emotional reactions. It’s not what I prefer. My mind prefers to have moved on already. But that’s not what life is doing. How do you be in the river? And I think, my experience with people is that, that is the hardest thing for people to be like,  But I can still control my life.  It’s like, Yeah but you’ve tried and it’s not working. How do you live this new way of listening? You don’t even know where your heart is? Where your guidance is, right? Where your truth is? What is that? What does that even feel like and how do you live from there, when everything in you is screaming –  Don’t do it!

Suzanne: It’s our survival instinct. I’m always reminded and maybe you would share the story about what happened when we met each other. You were really needing to reinvent your life in the Bay Area and right after I met you, you went off and found a place to live and the way everything rolled after that just seemed so magical to me and I would guess you would attribute that to this letting go and letting this super train drive your life.

Ambujam: Exactly!

Suzanne: Do you want to share anything about, say how you furnished your apartment?

Ambujam: Well, before that little magical story, you know the super train, like it knows exactly what’s necessary and I remember 23 years ago maybe like the first couple of sessions I was doing, I saw my client’s Soul and the Soul or the Being was moving so slowly and yet really, really fast at the same exact time. And the Being or the Soul was like this flower that was budding and flowering out of itself and it was completely connected to everything that is and there was zero sense of what about me.  What am I going to do? What about my money? What about my life? It was 100% in life and it was completely unfolding out of itself without any thought of the future because it was just completely present. And the super train is that and so are or mind, it’s the leftover Flintstone car. It’s trying to drive really fast like the super train or it thinks it has to figure it out, right? But it can’t because it’s a super train. It can’t. It just can’t do it. And so yeah, I felt like. So after we stayed with you, I felt like to go to my friend’s house in the Bay Area which we did and then this place showed up in Santa Rosa to take over someone’s lease for 4 months and we were like that feels really right even though I’m like, I don’t want to live in Santa Rosa but our hearts, were all like, Yes, let’s move into this place. So we moved in and we had no furniture and the superintendent, whatever you call that person, I don’t even know what you call that person who runs everything in the building, came in and we are like, Oh yeah, we need some furniture and he’s like, Oh! We have an executive suite and we are actually selling all that furniture because we don’t need it anymore. So we bought a couch and then tables and all the stuff like for 150 bucks. And I know so many people listening are probably.. you know, you guys have your own experience of when the flow is happening, right? Like you could not even understood how it all happens but stuff comes when you need it, right? It’s a very specific kind of experience, right? And I think you know I feel like Spirit, they’re turning in right now, they are like, letting go and knowing that we are one 100%  loved and supported is the hardest thing as a human being because we’re so scared. The survival is so scared at things that has to be protected 24/ 7. But life is asking, No! No! No, sweetie… That’s over now. Let go. Fall back, trust fall.  And we just can’t do it, it’s too scary.  So we’re like, let it go for a second and then that you go contracts again and then we are like, Oh no, no, no!

I mean, the mind can’t know it, it just can’t. The mind doesn’t understand how equally loved and supported we are, but our hearts know.

Suzanne: Would you say this is the ultimate message in a lot of the readings you do? That we are 100% loved?

Ambujam: Yup. You know, it’s interesting when you said there is a pattern like, and it still happens to this day. The first session I did, this person’s fear was so scared of whatever the issue was and it was like this part of this person was peeking around the corner like you could just see it’s little eye because it looks so scared and the Spirit was like, Oh my God! You are so cute and sweet and you are so loved. And I was blown away by how much love for the fear there is, or the judgment that we have and that’s still today like somebody is going through something, it’s the most horrible thing ever, but it’s life loving them so much, that it wants them to break free of the things that we keep trying to hold on to because it’s going away. You know our lives are going away if it’s not aligned with the super train, you know it’s going away. How do we let go and be like, okay what wants to replace it,  that’s really hard.  So yeah, the absolute, I don’t want to say magical because it’s kind of just, it is like we are loved so much but we can’t perceive it mentally. Spirits said to me a long time ago, The one thing that keeps us from really seeing the truth is judgment. 

Suzanne: Yup… Yup… Yeah! 

Ambujam: So yeah, the wok is in a mixture of looking at people’s history of where their stuff is coming from that’s affecting them presently and then, we can say the other half of that is helping them embody what’s really rightful, now. And there’s like both! Like, Oh I understand my own Self so I can embody my True Self. You know every single person, too has a different spectrum of their awakening so this session always meets them where they’re at. So if somebody just woke up, it is like waking up from a nap you are all kind of groggy and you’re ah what’s going on, and then instead we will meet them there versus somebody who’s woke up, we could say years ago they are in a different integration process, right?  And so then, the session meets them there and that’s what I think is amazing of the work. It is like, it’s a chameleon.  Like it will do whatever it needs to do and meet people wherever they’re at and I never know what’s going to happen like ever, ever. And what’s cool is like all of my clients are like they’re there and they are ready and they like we all know, this is just how the work works, like you might have a question but we might go through the back door, in a whole different way because that’s what you’re Being is asking for. It’s like the whole session is to let go, we have no idea what’s going to happen.

Suzanne: Let me ask you a question then, does everyone wake up in the course of their life?

Ambujam: You ask the best questions.  If it’s their path to.

Suzanne: Say more about that, please.

Ambujam: So there is a large awakening going on as a whole. We could say the Earth as a Being is having her awakening, we could say kind of the beginning in 2012. All our little human selves on top of the Earth can’t help, but if that ripple through us, so we are all awakening. So everyone in my experience is having some sort of awakening because of the times we are in, where they go with it depends on the mystery, really. But in my experience when I look around at everybody, why everything’s in such chaos is because everybody’s waking up to the degree that they are waking up and so what happen is you get really scared and you want to grasp and the emotions that have been hidden underneath when the awakening happens all start coming up to the surface and people aren’t equipped to deal with them and they don’t know that’s what’s happening, so they are freaked out. I mean, just look at what’s happening in the world, so it’s happening in the world as an extension of what’s happening within each individual.
Suzanne: You’re referring to US politics for example?
Ambujam: Yes, for one example.
Suzanne: And is that a reflection of some sort of national awakening or global awakening?
Ambujam: Yes, for sure. So how I see one of the things election did – Well, two things, kind of simply put is, we all had like a veil on our hearts we could say, and what the election did is it ripped it off and all these pain and upset is coming out now. Where it was there anyway, but now we have to deal with it because it’s up like big time it’s up. And so on another level, what the election did was heighten and quicken we could say the frequencies on this planet and so there is a lot of fast moving energy right now and we are really being asked to deal with this pain, it’s really in everybody. So you can’t blame the President. He is a reflection of me and that’s the hardest thing. Where are you and me? I might not like what you do, but that’s me, the prospect of me. I’ve either done it, I’m doing it or some version of that is here. We are a collective. So it’s not just like, this person created this, we all created this somehow. but then the other pieces, where am I at on my path even though it’s happening in the world it’s happening in the world, where am I? Because I have to honor my path and go from there around this whole healing versus leave my spot, we could say, thinking I need to need to leave my spot because of what’s happening in the world and go be where someone else is at. The Spirit was really adamant about that. I did a group session before the end of the year and they said to everybody if you’ve already walked those 17 flights of stairs and you are on the platform stay there be where you are, really, be where you are, because that’s where we can help versus thinking we have to go all the way back if somebody else’s is just starting on their flight of stairs. They are like, if you already went to kindergarten and you’re in your PhD level there’s no need to repeat kindergarten, you know it.
Suzanne: Why would people think they had to do that? Give me an example please. What is a real life example?
Ambujam: If I’m thriving in a certain area of my life and I’ve worked really hard to get there and I watch somebody else suffering. My woundedness feels like it shouldn’t be thriving and I should go be where they are. You know, I should like water myself down or make myself smaller because that person is suffering. But what happens is then I just join them and I am not really helping anybody. Still it was like hold your spot really, really be where you are and honor because my path is just as sacred and important as their path is.
Suzanne: Wow! Well, you have given us much, much to think about my dear Ambujam, as I know you would.
Ambujam: Well, thank you for having me here.
Suzanne: I would like you to share how can find you and say a little something about your group healings, please
Ambujam: Sure! So my website is ambujamhealing.com  All my information is on there. So the group work is super interesting that came to me probably about maybe 3 years after I start doing my readings with people individually. I just had this idea of, Hey what happens if I can do two people at once. And I was actually in a retreat, a women’s retreat where I used to do body work and I was already doing a little mini groups and I said, Hey to the leader of the group, I said, Do you mind if I try a group healing with everybody here and she was like, Sure! So there was like 10 or 14 woman and all of a sudden, Boom! This energy started happening. Each person had their individual experience and so it just started happening and what happens when you meet as a group is, a Spirit basically taps me on the shoulder and they’re like it’s time for a group session now and I’m like, Okay and I feel it’s a very specific energy, I feel the energy, I get the emails together, I send it out and I’m like time for a group power healing and why I call it a group power healing is because we pack so much healing into an hour and a half. It’s insane like there’s so much power that arises out of when we come together. So that’s where that came from.
Suzanne: Let me ask you, is it delivered online?
Ambujam: It’s all on conference call. So people can call in from their phone or call in from Skype or call in from their computer.
Suzanne: Okay and I am going to be linking your links in the show notes. So if anybody wants a direct link they can just right on the site. Any parting shots for us, my dear Ambujam?

Ambujam: First, I want to say thank you for inviting me here. It’s an honor and I yes, I feel my Spirit has something to say.
Suzanne: Please.
Ambujam: What are they going to say… Okay! So they say, I am going to use the word faith and it’s like we, as individuals are all going through virtuous time right now, through the river through the woods to Grandmother’s house we go, and the terrain is very thick and we are getting through some really deep, old pain and they just really want us to be able be kind and gentle and really trust in our Guidance and in our own ability to take care of ourselves like we can do it! We can feel these feeling and get through it and really just there’s like this feeling of these big arms just holding us, but they are our own, like know that we are capable.
Suzanne: That’s awesome. That is completely awesome, but I know it would be! Thank you! Thank you so much Ambujam I invite everybody to drop by the show notes page and visit ambujamhealing.com and learn what you are all about, and thank you for bringing your wisdom today. It was absolutely beautiful.
Ambujam: Thank you for your questions, they are great.
Suzanne: Alright. Take care.  Bye.